The Indie Author Community lost a member this past week and it has taken me this long to come to terms with how best to express my feelings regarding the situation. You see, this particular author was a friend to many, including me. Many days and nights were spent chatting with her through messaging. The days when our lives and schedules (usually mine) got in the way and our daily conversation could not be had, felt like they were lacking something. So here is my open letter to a dear friend, who is sorely missed.
Everyday I find myself signing in to Facebook, hoping that your smiling face will be there to greet me, as you were on so many mornings. You were such an amazing woman. You were a loving and caring daughter, wife, mother, and friend. You had so much compassion and positivity that it was infectious (even on my worst days). It literally spilled out of you and into the lives of everyone you touched.
During the past year, it became routine to sign on and chat with you throughout the day, share little snippets of books we were working on, and to encourage each other on this crazy career path we’d chosen to pursue. Now there is a huge void in my collection of ‘must talk to’ friends because you are no longer here on this plane to fill it. I read through our past chats, needing to feel your presence and be touched by your beautiful spirit just one more time. I know you watch over us all now and will be checking in, but it is not the same. I’m selfish and want you here so we can finishing planning a possible trip to Tahoe to do book signings, share a room, and stay up late into the night talking about pursuing a dream we both shared.
My life is better because you were in it, Billie Jo. My heart aches because you are no longer here. My soul is forever changed because you called me friend. Now you fly with your own wings, watching over us all from up on high. Fly to the angels, my dear friend. Know that you are dearly missed, that you are loved, and you are thought of every day.
Sweet dreams, angel. Sweet dreams.
Your sister in writing and eternal friend,
If you are feeling up to it, why not hop on over and check out the cool stuff up for auction from all the authors and friends who would like to be able to help out the family in this time of great loss and sadness – Memorial for Billie Jo Hanlin